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Saturday, May 17, 2008
I hate matrices. They're the most illogical things that have ever walked the surface of the earth. Why write stuff in square brackets when you could just multiply them off? Why bother coming up with stupid rules like multiplying rows by columns when it's perfectly logical to just multiply the values off? Pfft. I'm probably only this annoyed because we've just learnt it this week and lo and behold, it's about the only thing in the whole applic maths course I can't fully grasp. And the applic exam is in 2 weeks time. Ah shit. At least it's not as bad as physics, where I just don't get EVERYTHING. Or I do, and then lose about half my marks on stupid mistakes. Am in a foul mood due to all the stress. Emma pointed out to me in applic yesterday that I'm permanently angry. Well, she didn't. I thought CD spelt 'associative' as 'assaciative', and was rather impatient, but he had in fact spelt it correctly. And I don't know why, but I just snapped 'yeah, that's right', only reining the 'fucking right' in at the last minute. And Emma was just puzzled as to why I was so pissed off when it's right. As CD says, don't ask me questions I don't know the answers to. I guess the stress from tests and the disappointing tests marks, coupled with the school portal breaking down for nearly the whole of yesterday, threw me into a foul mood. Physics, especially, was disappointing, considering the mistakes I lost marks for. It's always like this, and it's annoying because I study so hard, then let myself down. TD said that at the parent teacher too. He says he knows I know the work, but I always make these silly errors that cause me to underperform. I guess a slight consolation is that I'm not the only one who was/is in a perpetual terrible mood. Nearly everyone in the year is. It doesn't take much to set anyone off, and people have been crying etc, even the ones whom I never, in my wildest dreams, thought would crack up. As they say, there is always a first. Not to mention the dark eyebags under people's eyes (well, mine are permanent, so they don't count). Our lit class, as I pointed out to Shashi on Friday, looked like 'drugged birds in a glass case' (as quoted from Adrienne Rich's poem 'Like This Together', which we were incidentally studying). And TD, being the absolutely evil guy he is, seemed to be happier just because we were all so depressed. He'd given back our test from Wednesday, and the one we did before this one (he didn't have time to give it out then). Our physics class, for the first time ever, was absolutely quiet and as the saying goes, you'd have heared a pin drop. TD is just like a dementor. Jeez. So it has been a pretty depressing week at school, and I'm expecting the next 3 to be just about the same. Sigh... Great. 3:28 PM
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