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The author is a paranoid, deranged and cynical misanthrope who records snippets of her life so that she will remember them when she grows old and withered. The identities of any names or initials on this blog are based on the assumptions of the reader unless otherwise specified, and the author claims no responsibility for them.
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The author somehow got into medical school. Yes, you of the general public, shudder and fear the wrath of an inept doctor.
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Reading, Maisy (my dog), tea, writing (albeit badly), piano, music, junk food.
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Almost everything else besides the things mentioned above.
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Bao Cheng' Bernice' Chien Young' Chun Hing' Claire' Faustina' Felicia' Ferly' Gloria' Irene' Irene & Jiaying' Jac' Jiamin' Jiasin' Jiaying' Lutheng' Karene' Marissa' Melesa' Mingyi' My fictionpress' Pamelia' Pei Rong' Qiu Ting' Rachel' Satires Site' Stasia' Sylvia' The Clique' Vinette' Wenjia' Xin Rong' Xue Ying' Yanne & I' Yanne & Jamie' Zeena' 203'
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I really should steer away from all the marks crap. Except that I can't wait to see my family's look of horror when they've realised I beat the crap out of him. Oh well.
I kind of regret not blogging on 203 day. Yes, I did put it on my msn nick, but it won't be in my archives to relive it:(. And why didn't I blog? Because I was working my arse off on my maths assignment.
Sometimes I wonder why I've become like this. I want to go back to the happy times in 203, where I just laughed off a 39/100 in Maths. I have no idea why I took so many maths and science subjects when I could just go 'f*ck this' and take humans. Has the world really made me change that much? Have I sunk that much down the rabbit's fur?
I get depressed, think of the times in 203, get even worse, almost to the state of tears. Somewhere along the way of orientating myself in the world, I lost the shadow that constantly reminds me of life. That life isn't just about a few sheets of paper, life isn't all about sibling rivalry, life isn't all about making a fortune and dying unhappy.
I don't even know why I sit with a huge group of people during lunch, half of whom wouldn't even give a damn if I dropped off the Earth tomorrow. Why? To make people think I'm popular? To delude myself that somehow, people wouldn't judge me anymore? I'm tired of sticking with this kind of sh*t. But I don't want to come home and get scolded because 'you are so anti-social. Why can't you just accept anyone?'
It makes me want to stand up in the middle of the discussion of dog's breakfasts and yell 'F*CK YOU ALL', and stomp away. Thinking of that makes me think even more about 203, and I do walk away, but quietly.
203... I did say life goes on after 203. But I didn't add that it doesn't go on very happily.
Eunice, Bao, Qiuting, Jac, Teo Lulu, Xr, Nut, Lizzy, Irene, Carrot, Bernice, Jiaying, Ferly, Seeting, Peirong, Shiru, Me, Faus, Sylvia, Yimin, Laykuan, Mingyi, Sheena, Pam, Sera, Sharon, Mengyuan, Natan, Felicia, Pui, Vinette, Sai, Jm, Mel, Sars, Chunhing:
I can't say how happy I was to be in the middle (literally and metaphorically) of all of you. Thinking of 203 makes me want to go back to NUS after my sh*tty high school education here.
Happy very belated 203 day.
10:22 AM