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Thursday, March 17, 2005
our class n grp's waving a tearful gdbye to anyone going for OM nationals in our class. even though our structure managed to take all the weights that were available, 2/1's also did. n their design n skit were better than ours. but at least we did better than the sec 3s n others. i m pissed coz like the sec 3's structure cant even take the crusher board n they r in, we are out. sigh. unfairness of the world. what can i say? i felt it coming, n it did come. i dont know what to do anymore. mayb it's a call from God to ask me to go back to Heaven with Him. or hell. i have tried to numb my feelings on this issue by forcing myself to study n stuff, but it nvr helps. it just keeps shouting out at me, reminding me every second, hounding and chasing after me, like a fire spreading with the wind, a hawk hunting down its prey. what's the point of carrying on struggling? why shldnt i just allow the fire to burn me, to burn my soul with all it's troubles and burdens? mayb i shld do that, anyway, what's there left for me? the raging fires, the blizzard, the storm... everything is such a beautiful disaster. including myself. i really wish to travel back in Time, i dont care abt how much pain i must go through. i really long to go back to my childhood, although it wasnt happy at all, it was much better. i wish for those trivial happiness like just eating an ice cream, receiving a lollipop. who wld care abt such things now? sweetness of life is all gone. gone with the wind, washed away with the torrents created as Time goes by. wearing that white uniform almost everyday of my life. routines really kill people. that uniform is nothing but just an exam script, with those 2 sacred red words as your grades, your passing mark into today's society. choices. do we have the choice to say we dont care? 6:48 PM
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